Three Shades of Awesome

Well I’m exhausted now, I ddnt fall asleep till some time around 5 last night I was working on a video of nature shots my pastor had asked me to put together. I’d planned on getting it all done Friday but my boss asked me to take a shift for someone else Friday night. I shoulda just told her no but I’m always up for helping apparently, even if it means in always taken for granted… Need to work on that actually.

Anyway, so I got home from work last night totally zonked, then worked on the slideshow/video for an hour or so, that wasn’t what took all the time though. What took the time was waiting for iMovie to mix it down, and tricking the ghetto media shout software the church uses into playing the mpeg4 file. After I installed iTunes and Quicktime it worked though due to the fact that the sound card onboard the laptop doesn’t work I wasn’t able to do a run through on another video project I had worked on so in the middle of the service I found out that media shout does not like mpeg4 audio so there was this annoying clipping sound. I just about died when I heard it.

The nice thing is that the church was practically empty since everyone was away for turkey day things not that many people got to see my lil flub haha.

Apparently everyone enjoyed the media stuff since I got a bunch of positive feedback… Which is really good considering I forgot to go through a read through with one of the worship leaders so one song was totally out of order, and another was all over the place too. It just slipped my mind to make sure that was working cause I ha the other two things I was worried about having working.

Either way though it was good. I’m really glad I’m able to contribute at a church right now. In a lot of ways I feel like things between me and God are kind of fuzzy, slash it’s hard after everything that’s happened to trust Him. I think everyone gives Israel a hard time about not going into the promised land, but to be honest I cab kinda understand the hesitation. So it’s good that I have something that keeps me connected even if a lot of times prayer doesn’t feel as natural as it used to.

I do confess though sometimes at night I still think way too much about that day with the shouting match at church. I was thinking last night about how many people had talked to our pastor about the fact that there were gay people aka me, at church now. I mean you don’t publically address the whole congregation if it’s just one person. Part of me really wants to hang in and wait things out, but another part keeps remembering how hurtful church drama can be. I mean, I don’t think that will happen, especially since it seems the majority of people with sway in the church lean in a more accepting direction. I just have a lot of trouble being hopeful.

But anyway, yah, Im sleep as all get out, and thankfully will be getting off the bus shortly so I can go home and sleep.

So yah, happy turkey day all