Three Shades of Awesome

So I was sitting at work, and I co-worker suggested maybe I should go walk around since it was pretty dead. I was like sure. I went and checked out some electronics sections to see things I knew I could get cheaper online.

Then I stopped into the gap since I was needing a new pair of jeans and I decided to check and see if maybe they had some in my size.

Nothing can make you feel way too big than trying to shop at a normal people store when you’re my size. Their pants stop at size 36. Even at the smallest I’ve been at that would still be one size lower than I could have gotten.

It doesn’t help that my romantic fling I mentioned earlier came crashing down. I have realized as soon as I blog about anything like that it always falls apart. I kind of had a feeling it wasn’t going to last, but the really hard part I’d that out of all the guys who have flat out said they found me attractive he was the nicest, smartest, and all around best. That’s the really hard part. In the three years since I came out I’ve never met anyone who I foud that attractive who also found me attractive. Sadly there were a whole lot of things that didn’t work in my favour. The fact that he was bi, and still not comfortable with it, a bunch of things going on in his family, and to top it off him hitting it off with a cute girl.

Ugh, the whole thing just has me feeling like an empty shell. I’m just kind if running through the day doing things but not really thinking. Part of me just wants to curl up in bed and be alone, part of me wants to go out with friend and forget. Part of me just wants to punch walls and scream. The worst part is that I knew it wasn’t going to last but I still ended up going through with it. Best part is I wouldn’t give it up for a anything.

Anyway, that’s life now. Some day it’ll all work out. And then North Korea will get those nukes working

Hey all. So I’m riding the 16 right now. I gotta say they couldn’t make transit schedules more confusing if they tried. Anyway, lost my headphones so this is probably gonna be the most boring bus ride ever. Oh well I imagine I’ll get by. I’m just not looking forward to buying new headphones especially since I’m gonna want some with a mic in them.

In other news, I’m on my way to work at the Kiosk, my transfer has finally gone through and I’m enjoying the change of pace a lot more. It’s good cause you can talk to people all day. It is frustrating cause fewer people come in for sure knowing they want a phone, but my sales on Saturday were pretty dang good!

I’m still getting used to this bus trip, I’m never quite sure how long it’s gonna take me to get to work. Last time I gave myself 40 minutes and I got there a half hour early. This time it should be a little closer so we shall have to see

Oh and isn’t this wordpress blog freaking sweet? I mean I can blog from my phone again as well as have Anyone log in with their facebook account which is also pretty cool since last time I had comments on my blog I got a lot of trolls. This time people are less likely to be using psudeonims.

Anyway, not sure what else I have to say, so I guess I’ll just enjoy the bus ride to work. Hope you all have a great day!

Well, I suppose this will be my first post on my brand new Blog that I set up. If I have any readers left you’ll notice a few things. Firstly this isn’t SmolderingReformation.com when I named my last site I was kinda bitter, and burnt out. While I’m still brunt out I’m a lot less bitter. This name derives itself from actually a screen name I made for an online dating site… for the record… dating, especially online dating sucks… but I really liked the phrase/name. So I think I’m gonna keep it. I’ve been debating exactly how I wanted to proceed on the blogging front. Really the blogging experience is pretty dependent on your tools. I used Blogger for years, but decided to shut down my old blog at pastoralwannabe.blogspot.com and start up my new then, now old site smolderingreformation.com. Basically I moved from Blogger a tool developed and hosted by Google, to iWeb hosted on my own hosting account. Needless to say there were a few trade offs. iWeb allowed a greater degree of flexibility over how each page might look, but it really failed in allowing me to automate just about anything. It handled RSS and that was about it. It let you position anything you wanted anywhere on the page (which if you’re used to web design, is a HUGE thing!) But ultimately I had to simply say really iWeb isn’t the tool for me. That and I really wanted to have a TDL (Top Level Domain) that was a bit more fun and quirky and less depressed and emo. Also as with all my ventures, I decided to create this new site, ThreeShadesofAwesome.com I thought of perhaps 3shadesofawesome.com but then I realized I’d have to tell people the number three and they’d get confused.

Anyway, there are a few major pluses with this one.  Firstly I can blog from anywhere, there’s a WordPress app for my iPhone that I can connect and blog any and everywhere from.  You’ll probably see a few short entries from the bus and what not like I used to do on my old blog.  Plus since WordPress is a script running on my own server I can do whatever I want with it, as well it’s exceptionally extensible through what seems like a great plugin architecture.  For example I already added a plug in that will allow you to login using your Facebook, Gmail, Yahoo, or MySpace profiles… though if anyone logs in with a MySpace profile I swear I’m gonna call you dirty!

Anyway, so yah you can check out the site, let me know what you think… actually no you can’t cause I haven’t really told anyone about it.  Maybe once I edit the theme a bit I shall!